My husband and I would just sit and say, "Is this all life is? What is our purpose here on earth?" We were always trying to start new businesses or look for new jobs and just do anything to give us that sense of purpose but it would always fade. Nothing would ever fully satisfy us and we didn't know why. We would go to church and ask each other, "Why are all of these people crying? Isn't God suppose to be a happy God that did not bring sorrow? Why go to church and worship God if it is so sad?" Now WE are the ones crying all the time and raising our hands in church to worship. We are the ones who are at church every day the doors are open. We are laying in bed at night reading spiritual books and watching sermons from Matt Chandler from The Village Church. We are the ones who speak about the glorious miracles that God has performed on our lives and blessings He has bestowed upon our marriage and family.
We will never achieve true emotional and spiritual healing until we surrender to God. Because healing comes when what the devil meant for evil, God turns into something good. And then we can encounter, firsthand, how our pain helped change the lives of many others forever. When we witness the experiences of our past and serving a higher purpose than pain, shame, and regret, our hearts can experience absolute freedom from bondage. We will then reach a level of joy that we never thought possible.
So if you are struggling today with ANY type of shame, pain and regret, please know that there is a God who offers only love, peace, forgiveness and grace waiting for you to surrender it all to Him. Once you do that, your life of captivity will be dead once and for all you will be welcomed to eternal freedom.